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Name: ~Crystal~
Country: United States
State: Florida
Metro: Fort Myers
Birthday: 1/1/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: JESUS!!!!, Dance, Debate, Speech, Making people laugh and smile (lol, I think I'm good at that..or maybe people just laugh because they feel sorry for me :-), Creation vs. Evolution, Poems *sigh*, Talking (phone, im, in person, email), Music~CCM and irish, and COUNTRY and rock and pop; and lots more "interests", except for sports, I could care less about them
Expertise: Falling, Laughing, Bumping into walls, Tripping over my own feet, Dancing (yes, it may sound like an oxymoron, but dancers are among the most clumsy people on earth), Going going going (i'm homeschooled....and not home very much....hm.), Convincing everyone how cute my brother is, Talking, there's more, but I don't want to brag. *rolling eyes* lol
Occupation: housework...
Message: message me
AIM:  smartblonde859
MSN: newyearbaby88@earthlink.net
Member Since:
4/25/2004
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| - Sand in my Shoes Nationals is over, and with Nationals goes my career in the NCFCA league. This past week has been extremely difficult on me because of the fact that I will no longer be participating in all the many tournaments and competitions that have been such a huge part of my life for the past four years. The people that I have met have added an element to life such that I don't beleive I could have ever found elsewhere, and leaving them behind is a task I look foward to in the same way I anticipate eating brusselsprouts or cabbage. But, life must go on. We cannot hang onto highschool forever, and though I fully realize that, and indeed desire to trek on, my heart and emotions and memories are slower to adapt. If any of you think of me, your prayers would be greatly appreciated. I love all of you so incredibly much, probably more than each of you induvidually realize, and you have all impacted my life in ways which you will always remain ignorant of.
I am not entirely sure if I am going to be keeping this xanga alive...certain thoughts <and people> beg me to stay and others agree that it is time to completely move on. I think I settle for somewhere in the middle. So for now, I might just stay as a member, but an inactive one mostly.
I would say more about my trip and the people involved in making it wonderful, but I am simply beat right now, so I won't. Love all of you all so very much,
Crystal | | |
| Clarification: That last post was indeed posted by me, NOT by some hacker. For those of you who were confused as to if it was the same hacker as the last two entries, it was not. The person who hacked into my account is indeed one of the most wonderfulest people on the planet. So no problems. yeah. lol.
alright, that was my only purpose in posting tonight. | | |
| I was *this close* to shutting down my site just now. I am sick of it. It and my freaking life. Xanga has been a stinking time waster for too long. I am OVER it.
After Nationals, I will be shutting it down. Unless anyone can give me some good reason not to. After Nationals, i figure, the whole xangan crowd will simply be of the past...my career in NCFCA is over. and there is no reason to prolong it.
that and I don't want to keep up this image that i am mostly happy-go-lucky, or that i'm this wonderful person and so nice and pretty and cool. Because none of that is true. (if you believed any of it anyway). GOD i hate this life. there is no way to express it. i should be dehydrated by now.
So goodbye. i might still comment on ya;ll sites after this. i guess that is why i'm keeping it a while longer. but this xanga's life sentence has been issued. | | |
| ...In the last post. Oh, not about anything IN the post, no. Everything in the post was true and accurate. But see, that little signature at the end -- looked like "~Crystal" -- was completely untrue. And no, I don't feel bad about lying to you all. Because it proved I have great skill at imitating people that I know in internet form. See, you all BELIEVED that it was said "~Crystal" that created that last post of ingenuity. Right down to the last "lol" you believed it was her. Oh no, I don't feel bad at all. In fact, I am quite proud of myself. I believe that was 15 comments that fully supported "~Crystal" as the author. However, "~Crystal" did want me to mention that since she wasn't the one that wrote that last post, not all of it may be her opinion. For example, I think she specifically mentioned the "I'm so bad sometimes." line and the "i have no guilt! no remorse!" line and the "see what i mean! i'm bad." line. In fact, she specifically wanted me to mention to certain maternal parental units that frequent her blog that she, in all honesty, did NOT write the last post. So here is that message, delivered to Mrs. Colbert, Mrs. Newcomer, and one other Mrs. that I now forget...
Crystal did NOT, in any way, shape, or form, type that last post.
She did, however, say almost the entire thing to me in a phone conversation.
Signed,
~Me | | |
| I have guilt....lol. guilt is NOT fun. so I have NO time but I'm posting anyways cuz I hafta tell you all this as like sort of a confession lol. So yesterday I was driving and listening to the radio and this REALLY bad song comes on and like got totally into it, rocking out and everything lol. but I didn't speed. lol. So it finished and and changed the station and then ANOTHER really bad song was playing there TOO!!! rofl. I got totally into that one too. hehehehe...I'm so bad sometimes. lol. and NO, I'm NOT telling you which songs they were. lol. but it's really ok cuz my favorite song is still good morning beautiful, which is not a bad song and which my wonderful friend ryan heard THREE times yesterday. hah! sorry ryan, i do feel bad for you. even though I did make fun of you on your voicemail, hahaha...(See, his mom used all their cell minutes so he can't talk to me, lol.)
Ok. thanks for letting me get that off my chest. it was really weighing me down. lol. not really. actually it wasn't weighing me down at all. but it was funny! actually i take back the whole i feel guilty line. i have no guilt! no remorse! the songs rocked! perhaps that is worse, but oh well. lol! see what i mean! i'm bad.
dang. I used "lol" ten times in that post....i think i use it too often lol. whoops.  make it eleven.
~Crystal~
~Good Morning Beautiful~
Good morning beautiful
How was your night
Mine was wonderful
With you by my side
And when I open my eyes
And see your sweet face
It's a good morning beautiful day
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